DD and my relationship has been like a tumultuous love affair, LOL! I did fall in love with her at first sight, but perhaps it was infatuation - when the rubber hit the road I resented her dependence on me and grieved my old life. (But I always felt bad about those thoughts and apologised to her. And I still do, when I get impatient & dissatisfied with motherhood, and with her.)
And she wasn't a cuddly kid either. Some babies snuggle in close to you - well, she was never like that. When you held her she'd lean away. The only close cuddles I had with her were when she was asleep or feeding. In these times, my heart would just about melt out of my chest.
BUT, the love I have for her has massive peaks as well. And over time, the valleys have become far less frequent. Now that we are communicating a little more I feel like our relationship is far more stable (LOL, this is sounding so weird! But the analogy seems to work well.)