It was difficult. At first I resented DS as I never loved his father (DS was concieved the first time we slept together) and had moved away from my family because I felt I had to, for DS' sake. It wasnt until I moved back to my hometown that I started to feel for him and now I can honestly say I love my little man so much it scares me (as I will be starting a custody battle soon). I never realised how much I love him until his father threatened to take him away.