great post flowerchild!!

i am reading this thread with so much anticipation! this has been my question for any future birth choices that i may have the privilege of making...

my optimal situation would be to go to the Mercy FBC. BUT i have immense fear in the strong possibility of transfer and to end up in a hospital environ if i had of been expecting a BC may catapult me straight back to PND land.
for that reason, if i suspected that there was too great a risk of not getting into the BC then i would most probably go HB. (unless of course there were actual risks to the baby or myself to birth vaginally etc).

hmm as you can see this has been a confusing decision. my DH is supportive of both BC and HB...so he's no help LOL!

either way i will have a ind. midwife or doula no matter what...