Ally - i'm sorry that you are having a tough time dealing with all of this right now. I'm in a similar boat. I think that it is good that you are looking into your options now. My biggest struggle with a high-risk pregnancy is the lack of control we have. For me i'm looking into my VBAC options as well as hypnobirthing. I am persuing this road because i had no choice last time and have battled with losing control of my birthing situation. If you feel that you will be in control by chosing another c/s then go for it. But it also doesn't hurt to investigate all the options that interest you. This is your pregnancy, baby and body so ultimately you need to choose whatever makes you feel the most comfortable. My thoughts and support are with you Ally. Lets hope we have wonderful pregnancies and birthing experiences which ever way they turn out!