No you don't sound pathetic, rather the opposite! What an amazing and strong woman you are, to recognise at this special time that a relationship really isn't right, and to see that he's not the right person to support you through what is to be your last labour. I read something quite profound the other day...it's one thing to be at a birth, another entirely to actually support a woman through labour...and you will know who is the right person to be with you.
Kelly has made some great suggestions, the other thing to do is to go into the Birth centre, and get to know a few of the midwives there. They may be just the support you need. I work as a homebirth midwife, but I can tell you that lots of women choose to labour in isolation, even when they have lots of support people at their disposal. It's not a sign of weakness at all, it's just what some women know they need at the time. Having said that, we all get to a point when the arrival of the baby is imminent, where we need someone we trust to tell us that we can do it, and that's where a student midwife, or doula, friend, family member, cousin, or whoever is the right one for you, will be invaluable.
All the very best for a wonderful and triumphant birth,
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