I don't like midwives

[Beach Mama]

Tara, I havent experienced anything like this (in fact the Dr's Ive seen are terrible), but you really shouldnt have to be feeling like this, your care providers should make you feel relaxed and confident that they will look after you and your bub. Anyway I agree that its not too late to get a private midwife you click with and plan a homebirth. Another thought - could you hire a doula to act as a go between for you so you dont have to deal with them directly??? I think its worth investigating if you are thinking along the path of having bub at home anyway. Big to you - hope you can work something out.