Relle - I'm with the others. Perhaps the second labour wasn't the way it was because of the induction, but because it was your second time?
I personally rated going into labour naturally, sure there are things to figure out, but it is do-able, and if you end up having to take your kids to hossy with you for a quick labour - is that the worst possible scenario?

Have confidence - I reckon you might do a lot better than you realise