Kate I want the farm too my love... In my early twenties I dreamed of going there...
Your job as a Mama preparing for her birth is to seek out good support - so you have a wise woman to listen for you and guide you.

You need to really tune into your body now. Learn to say NO! I am glad you felt you could do that when it didn't feel right for you.

Thank you for all your replies, makes me feel less freaky. Getting info on VE from a few different experiences assists in helping me to work out where my comfort level, and preferences are.

I am searching and seeking out people that will guide me in the time leading up to, and the time of the birth, and after. Testing the waters with people who are close to me to see if and how they will support me and my choices.

I am also talking to a student midwife, and another midwife to see if they are the right people to join us (me, DH and bub).

unfortunately there are financial considerations, distance to hospital if required, and pre-existing conditions that i have to also add in, but a homebirth is still on my possibility list.

Ahhh Inanna I so wish you could have flown to Tassie to be with me a week ago - I needed you to make my fear go away!!!!!!
If i do decide on hospital, i have some sayings that i want to have written out to remind me if things go alittle array. I think some of Inanna's posts may be printed out and added to my hospital bag, cos you never know when her words will come in handy!


Mostly though I think that your vagina is your sacred space - keep others fingers out during labour unless it is necessary!