Sorry this is going to be pretty rambling....
I have been going really well and been really proactive and excited to have a nice, calm waterbirth for this bubby. Until my appointment the other day I had to see a registrar (for the first time this pg) about my prolapse. Never mind the prolapse she was pretty uninterested in that "oh the physio can fix that" but was much more interested in our decision to refuse antibiotics for group b strep. How that is relevant to a prolapse I'm not sure but she and the midwife (not my midwife) were determined to interogate me about it and change my mind! I know I shouldnt have let them get to me because I won't be seeing either of them again and my midwife and the birthcentre are really great but now I keep thinking, if I have any complications I will be transferred to the labour ward full of people with this mindset and I won't have the mental strength to deal with them and Im terrified the birth will go the same way as DS's. I'm already struggling with how crowning will go with the level of scar tissue I have from a poorly sutured episiotomy and surgery to fix it.
I can't put these things out of my mind and I'm really struggling to get my positive natural calmbirth mojo back. Any suggestions?


sent from my watzamajig so may not make sense....