I was terrified after my first birth. first time I ended up being induced after 12 hours of labour, being pushed into having peth (I wanted drug free) and after 36 hours gave birth to my son. It was really a horrible experience, I could go on but I am sure you get the point!. Second time around I too booked myself into a birth centre hoping to have a better time. I did waters broke at home and from first contraction to birth was 3 1/2 hours. No drugs and DS2 was born in the bath. There is hope, good luck you can do it xx