I feel robbed for not getting my natural delivery but am so scared something will happen if I birth naturally because my Ob told me I am unlikely to ever be able to deliver naturally due to pelvic size etc.
MG what you`ve written is exactly how I felt after having Matthew via c/s, so many people couldn`t understand why I wanted a VBAC so much and off course I was worried that I may have had true CPD and not be able to birth Adrian but I did it even if he was born with the help of forceps due to exhaustion on my part (MIL tells me that I didn`t birth him, the Dr did pffft)

By the time I was pregnant with Adrian I was aware of how wrongly CPD can be diagnosed hence my VBAC with him and I got him out and he was the same size as Matthew.

It will all depend on your OB as to how much monitoring you`d be having, my OB was fine with me to have very little monitoring as I wanted an active labour and not hooked up to the machine but as it turned out when I did go into labour the midwife was just beautiful and would let me stay in the bath and use the doppler to monitor me BUT then I had a change over of MW`s and this one wanted the monitor continuously on I was not impressed especially since being in the bath really helped things move along