i said, really calmly apparently 'i'm going home, i understand i need to come back but i just have had enough right now, so i'm going and i promise i'll come back a bit later, ok?' about 15 minutes later i pushed my son out.

i said 'shi- vers' alot - god forbid i swear!!!!! WTF?

after my son was born i was absolutely flabbergasted that it was a baby. i kept repeating 'it's a baby' 'it's a baby' 'it's a baby' like i was so shocked by this fact. what was i expecting you ask????? an alien, a litter of puppies - i really don't know! it was a really nice surprise to get a baby though!!!!!

that's what i get again this time!

love beckles