daniela, I'm so sorry things didn't get to go according to plan. I was absolutely devestated after labour to have an emergency c/s. I felt like I had failed birth. I know now that I haven't and have a beautiful healthy child, but at the time I couldn't understand why things had to happen that way for me. You had the decision taken out of your hands and that is so hard to understand. Take your time. I had to grieve my birth. Like Sarah said, take the time & get those feelings out.

Have you had a de-brief? We have a birth de-brief forum where you can put your story down from the beginning to end. I found it helped me prepare for this pregnancy and putting things to rest (still....) so I can prepare for this birth that will happen soon enough.