Thankyou for sharing your birth story. It sure opens your eyes as to how they like to intervene as much as possible. Its like birth is a condition to them, not something natural and it angers me that at some hospitals they take away all of those special moments from a family just because its protocol or they are on a schedule.
Wow what an epic tale - you did so well and what a recollection you have! - I definitely don't think you failed yourself or your beautiful DD or your husband or midwife - I am in awe of you and thank you for sharing your story
WOW! You had my tears flowing at the deal you made with your wriggling belly-occupant..
You did a fantastic job bring your beautiful, healthy little girl into your arms! I can only hope I can do as well as you did if I'm put in a similar situation as what you were!
I think it's simply horrid the way they took your DH's moment of glory away from him! Personally, that would be the only thing I'd be dissapointed with! Which was totally the fault of the midwife!
Hey Kat. I am overwhelmed by this story. So much of it resonates with me, as I'm sure it does with every birthing woman, and so much of it has opened my eyes further to what a bodily experience birth is (sounds obvious, but its not). And some of it taught me about how tough it can be and how through circumstances out of my control I was privileged to have two very positive birth experiences.
I'm so pleased that you included that last page. I'm thrilled to know that you've come through this debriefing empowered, rejoicing in Ivy's birth. I am sorry for the struggle to get here, but mostly I'm sorry for the set of circumstances that took away your confidence.
Yours is such a powerful story, Kat. I can't believe how much you can remember 4 months on! I was struggling to remember the details of my births after only a few weeks. But your recounting of your feelings, urges, emotions... it brings it all back. Thank you for that. And thank you for sharing. xx
Wow... thankyou so much for all the lovely comments. I'm really touched. Like I said, I wrote this for my own debrief and was actually really embarrassed to post it because it's sooooo long and I thought it might be a bit self-indulgent. But I'm really glad others have enjoyed it, and if it gives anyone ideas, inspiration or information... I'm really happy to have shared it.
Amy, I wrote a fair bit down within the first few weeks, it's just taken me this long to put it all together into a semi-coherent story.
What an impressive, inspiring, rational, beautifully expressed account of an amazing achievement. You've done so well! And I may be biased but I love her name. x Hugs x
Kat - your story is like mine in so many ways, but most particularly that feeling of letting yourself down. I recognised so easily that moment when all your control slips away so suddenly and your pain threshold just bottoms out. I get the occasional jealous twang when I hear of other women going "natural" and try not to get too bitter.
But really, there are so many justifications, that one simply needs to give herself a break. We didn't end up with Csections, and that in itself is a blessing. EVERY birth is natural, even if you have IVF, induction, Csection, and bottle-feed. There is nothing artificial in growing a baby in your tummy and the love you feel afterwards.
I agree, it is just a story. I wrote my birth story, the one that I wanted to write, about a month before having Caden. It was just words on paper, the water breaking at home, the giddy anticipation, the pain, the begging for an epidural but oh, too late, you're 10 cm already! No tearing, yay, no stitches, all finished in about 6 hours. But it is just words, and the true triumph comes from seeing the deepest depths of your soul and endurance, and admitting that you have seen the end.
SO you are a hero. To me, most definitley, you have to be because that means I am one too. *hugs*
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