Serendipity it sound like you had such a traumatic time, no wonder you are aprehensive this time around. I'm not sure the treatment you received was that supportive either! Is there anyway you might have had a reaction to the gas? It sounds like things went down hill from then on?

have you talked to anyone else about this expereince during this pregnancy? Like a midwife or doctor? I would think that perhaps if you were able to talk things through with a supportive medical person they may be able to help you resolve things before this labour so that it is a much better expereince for you. I just wonder if when you get back into that labour ward and the memories start flooding back, that it migt add unnecessary stress to your labour.

I am sending you all my best vibes and energy that this birth is healing for you, and you get a more postive expereince not only with labour, but with the bonding and help with your baby afterwards, I agree with you, the nurse taking your baby away certainly wasn't going to help you learn to settle him. I really am shocked that the midwife was blind to why he was upset..being too cold? surely that's something that snuggling up to your mother would fix!