Thanks for your replies

LOL Trish at the epidural at home, i liked that

Katanya: Yes i did tell midwife at first hospital appointment about my concerns and she was really nice about it and explained how things could of went wrong the first time. I actually had to go to hospital the other week to be monitored and i was quiet comfortable being there but i think that the attitude of the midwife and having a lovely doctor helped there, so hoping they are there when its time.

Still cant take away all of my thoughts but i am certainly trying, but have already decided no matter what happens there will be no more after this one, i am done!