Well, last night (might as well say that even though I've not slept yet and it's 4am) has been a step backwards.

Midwives been trying to get me to express then put her on and then express again cause they weighed her and shes lost a tad over 10% of her birth weight and I'm honestly in that much pain!
With the first express, got absolutely diddly squat. Then, she attached fine but was on for an hour and 10 minutes (45 minutes right side and the rest on the left side - but left side was constantly stopping and starting cause she kept taking herself off) and when she finally came off she was still crying for a feed and then tried expressing again which ended up with me in tears cause of nothing yet again coming out. In the end, I gave them permission to give her 40ml of formula cause I needed a break and some sleep (which hasn't happened as it is anyway cause DD has been crying in her sleep) which makes me feel selfish

Still in tears cause I'm hurting so much and I'm just not feeling like my milk is coming in at all (I remember the feeling well with Master W) and that the only pain I'm feeling right now is the pain from all the feeding.

That, on top of all the 'no sleep' situation is just killing me. DH isn't gonna be here till goodness knows when in the morning and all I want right now is him to give me a big hug and tell me I can do it but deep within me, I just don't feel like I can


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