I feel like I'm letting my irrational emotions (and if I'm honest, convenience) get in the way of what I know is an informed decision. To me, formula is easier than sourcing milk constantly. Otherwise, why the heck doesn't everyone do it, why does it exist at all? Is it rude to ask for blood tests? I don't know. I know I need to (wo)man up. I feel so vulnerable right now, so close to cracking.