Thankyou guys. To be clear, I'm not knocking formula, or judging others. It's just not right for us. I feel bad about making a choice based on my own convenience over DD, because I know I can get EBM. A silly part of me said, well I'd rather ABM than feeling inferior to another woman's BM. Like I said, my own crap.

I took a step forward and contacted a woman on HM4HB about some milk. If that doesn't work out, I'll try again, and again. I guess I'm just feeling so down lately. I'm trying to be positive and embrace this situation for what it is, but I'm not quite there yet. I just need to keep reminding myself, my milk will be back in 7 or so months, and DD can resume BF (not that I'm going to stop, but she can actually get some milk again after baby is here).