Thank you all so much. It means a great deal to me to have so much support.

Limey I wish I could express 150ml! I left some EBM for DP to give her last night while I was out and she was unimpressed when it ran out so he had to defrost more - she drank 150ml which kind of staggered me. And in place of the feed I sat down to express 60ml....which had me a little disheartened to say the least.

I guess I still feel like I'm on a knife edge in lots of ways when really my supply is probably reasonably well established now. I still panic about leaving her in case that one feed I miss will be the end of my milk supply. But I have to find a way to trust and be comfortable because I'm going to be leaving her for a couple of hours at a time soon so I can do a bit of paid work here and there (we need the $ after a lean year last year).

Beema thank you hun, your post rang true in so many ways. And those affirmations and those in the other posts are exactly what I needed to help buoy me along today. I'm so pleased your friend and her little boy are doing well....sounds like his journey was similar to DDs.

When I look at her and see how happy and healthy she is, and how settled she is during the day and nights its hard to see how anything could be wrong. And I know she's getting bigger just by looking at her.

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart.