Janie I don't know what words of wisdom I can bring forth at this moment that can make anything any better. But I understand the stress and strain A few things (even though I know you are doing them all )

Remember you have only been home for a short time and it will take some time to adjust and settle into a routine with the two little people and the extra feeding demands of a prem. All of the extra work to stimulate your supply is stressful - and stress only makes things more challenging. DH not being home as often as you would like is going to be hard. Other family issues will make it even more difficult. And I know you don't want to feel like DS1 is being left out or ignored. Combined, it can make it so very hard for you to feel like you are *succeeding* all round.

But you are succeeding!!!! You have done a fabulous job to get you and your little man home in time for Easter and the other event that shall not be named You ARE BF your son - and doing a bl00dy wonderful job of that too. Yep - your supply sucks. Again. But you are still giving him the most vital thing in the world. A loving mummy who is doing everything (and more) in her power to feed him.

I am around tomorrow if you need to chat. Or I might just call you anyway for that *reason*

I want you to know that I am so proud of you. Don't ever forget it.