Hey thanks everyone who replied. It really helps to hear that others have been through something similar.

I am still bf'ing for now. I am on stronger anti-fungals (for next 6 days) and just really hoping that things can work out. But I've dropped one feed for formula (as of yesterday) and it has really taken the pressure off and my husband has enjoyed this bonding time with Anna.

You know, I like what you said Mak, about doing our best and sometimes that being something we never thought we'd do. This is so true of birth and parenting in general, and life!

You know, Barb, I'm certainly not assuming that my PND will vanish if I stop bf'ing, but there is fairly established link between chronic pain and depression.

Lisa, let me know how you're going. Expressing is such a great thing to do. I tried expressing, but found that even more painful. But I still want to maybe give it a go, if I get up the guts, if the nips start feeling like they can take it. The doctor said electric pump is best?

Anyway, thanks all.
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