I was in the same delema as you with my second I had an emergency C with my first and they had to use a general so I had alot of trouble bonding and bfing was a nightmare but with my 2nd I had a spinal and everything was pre planned, I can't believe the difference between both births! the decision is a hard one I know, I was planning on a trial of scar but dd was breech at 39 weeks so I went with a C not too sure how it would have turned out having another emergency, something I was really worried about, I really wanted to be in control the second time.