awwww :hugs: i understand your fears hun , i really do .... im not going to say anything cheesy ... but if you want to vent your feelings its ok to do so ....

sometimes life doesnt work out the way we want it .. it sucks that we just have to suck it up when things mean so much to us ... and people can be ignorant about it when dreams are shattered ... but dont let any one put you down about not being able to birth vag. this will be the 4th csec for you ... and any woman who can go through that, is a full on trooper !!!! :hugs: