Yeah very true, sometimes i swear my brain just doesn't work! I thought it was awesome as it shows all the emotions ( well i felt it did anyway) but at the same time as you know you have to have another c-sec maybe not a good idea! I am just still dreaming atm!
Wow at bubby getting her head down too maz, sounds liek someone wants to come alittle too early! I have a vague recollection that your bubbies do that??? if so you best be putting your feet up girl and relaxing, and give sunshine a good talking to! She needs to bake a little longer yet.
Well i am off to bed, i have no idea when this exhaustion is going to pass but i hope its soon!!!
Well here I am posting as I have my c/s date confirmed for the 8th of Jan 2008. only 25 days away but god im so scared again now. Im worried about the after pains, worried that I wont wake up, worried that my baby is going ot get hurt!!! ahhhh.
Im trying not to think about feeling like a failure...but it still sits there doesnt it. Especially after coming back from the ob last night - oh Mrs Bourke your 1/5 way engaged and oh you cant have natural birth can you!! No but PLEASE LET ME TRY!!!!!!!!!!! no sorry, your c/s scare is actually starting to come apart in one section already so we defently cant let you labour naturally! I also asked for my tubes to get removed as I really dont want to go through any off this again. Jed and i have defently said no more babies for me and the ob actually recommended htat I dont have anymore especially seeing my pg's get worse the more I have.
wish me luck girls - I'll come back and let you all know how $hit I feel afterwards
awwww :hugs: i understand your fears hun , i really do .... im not going to say anything cheesy ... but if you want to vent your feelings its ok to do so ....
sometimes life doesnt work out the way we want it .. it sucks that we just have to suck it up when things mean so much to us ... and people can be ignorant about it when dreams are shattered ... but dont let any one put you down about not being able to birth vag. this will be the 4th csec for you ... and any woman who can go through that, is a full on trooper !!!! :hugs:
wow Lea you hit the nail on the head! I feel better reading your post thanks!!
Maz I'm right behind you, I know the mix of fear, excitement plus dissapointment it's enough to make you go koo koo :hugs: we'll make it to the end don't you worry
Ah Lea - stop it your making a pg woman cry (that would be including you Tiff hon) Thank yuo for thinking of us and seeign us in that light. I think we forget about those things and just pray that our babies come the way their ment to.
Tiff - hon you watch - New Years latest hon! We'll be there pooping our panties together!
Maz i just want to send you a big i recieved lots of support from you and the other amazing ladies in this thread leading up to my 2nd CS and now my DD is 5 weeks old. It is scary and horrible when its not what you want so i know how you must be feeling. I was really worried about the after pains etc but this time around for me i recovered brilliantly. I came home on day 3 and was amazed at how good i felt. You will do well and you beautiful new baby will be worth every minute of the pain as i'm sure you already know.
Take care and i will be thinking of you on the 8th
What a wonderful thread, Maz it sounds like you are feeling more confident and better now about your next c/s. I had my DD via emergy c/s in August after a 24 hour labour, the little miss has turned face up and tilted her chin so she was stuck for some hours before I finally agreed to have the c/s. I was dissapointed too and felt like a failure too, especially when after all that she wouldnt breast feed, and the nurses wrote 'Breast Refusal by Baby' on my records. My OB has already said the next one will be a c/s, but i think i will do some research on VBAC, and will try again, but if a c/s is what happens again, then i will have to deal with it again. But I am grateful that I had the chance to experience real contractions and labour. My BF had an elective c/s in the same month, and she doesnt feel like she robbed her self of anything, i guess we are all different and im so glad to know i wasnt the only one to feel this way.
Thanks Maz and best of luck for the arrival of bub #4!
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