Thanks for asking, Tan.

I'm no happier about it, but I'm a lot closer to accepting that this is what it is ...

And I've started discussing with my psych, ob and counsellor the need for me to have some strategies to cope with being in hospital before during and after the caeasar.

And I'm doing some thought exercises about my main worries about Ziggy, and Ziggy and my/DH's/DS's relationships.