After a bit of discussion and some very heavy research it looks like DH and I have decided that we would like to have an elective c section. I am a VERY nerves person and unfortunately my nerves affect me physically. We are having a very big baby. We have had U/S that have him at 80th centile at 28 weeks. I am 33 weeks tomorrow and my fundas is measuring 38cm. I am 5ft1 and DH is 6ft1. We have casually talked to our Obs since seeing him that we are concerned about having a vaginal birth and would like our options open.

However I have all but decided that this is the way I would like to bring my baby boy into this world. I have done my research and I know the risks and the recovery. I am aware of the fact that even if my baby is big and I am small that we can still have a problem free vaginal birth. BUT I am not will be DEVASTATED if I attempt labour and end up with my baby, me and DH in distress and in theatre for a emergency C Section.

I feel like I need to explain myself to people on why I decided on a C Section, but really should I have to? I do not feel like I have failed as a women if I bring my baby into the world in the best way that I feel is for us as a family. I already carried him safely and obviously grew him well (with God's grace). The fear of him being hurt and distressed is far more devastating to me than anything else. I have not made this decission because of fear of pain or tearing etc. I know that even with a c/s there is pain and in fact a much longer recovery. I know that and I accept that.

But for us this is what I believe is the best thing to do. Why can't people just accept our choice and to be honest I feel liberated that I have a choice! The birth will still be a miracle as is the fact that we have been blessed to have him in the first place.

Just needed to vent and hear some supportive comments right now.