I have made an educated decision that is for sure. I wouldn't think that having abdominal surgery is taking the easy way out at all, in fact its probably the opposite. My bub will be born during holidays and I will have plenty of family and friends that are busting to help out. My DH is wonderful and takes such great care of me now, so I don't have any concerns about the recovery at all.
If I was a proud person I would attempt a vaginal birth but to be honest I would not be doing it for the right reasons. I believe that I am honestly doing the best thing for my baby and my DH and I.

Knowing that my baby will be entering this world without me and him and DH being distressed is the best thing and I am confident with that choice.

As for my nerves, I have to say your right and I am certainly not offended. I am a lot better than I used to be. I know its all in my head and that is one of the reasons why we hired a Doula. DH and I feed of each others emotions. If I get nerves, he gets stressed, if he gets stressed I get even more nerves. Our Doula has helped us and she will continue to help us learn to deal with unpleasant or unsettling situations so that we don't freak out and make things worse. The only thing in this world that makes me nerves now is making sure I can bring my baby boy into this world peacefully. As long as I have done everything I can to ensure that happens than my nerves are gone. I pray that God who blessed us with our little boy and with an easy pregnancy will continue to bless us with a peaceful and safe birth.