I had an emergency c/s with DD and because of the rush it was not the best, but we both survived it and are alive today.

With DS I had an elective c/s and it was so clam and relaxed, DS was able to come to recovery with me and have his first feed and was a very pleasant experience. I felt in control that time around.

My Mum couldn't understand why I wasn't going to have him naturally but I told her "you have had your children now it is my turn" Turns out is was better for her in teh end as she could arrange the day off work and drive with my Dad the 2 hours to the hospital and be there when we came back from recovery and cuddle DS.

I think sometimes we place too much emphasis on HOW we give birth and not wnough on what to do afterwards ( a bit like planning a wedding but not thinking about the marraige IYKWIM?)

Best of luck!!