Hi Jessica
Yes i felt abit the same way im still very undecided, mine not being a vbac as i had a vb last time (but v. bad tear) but i have been advised by 3 different obs now to have a CS.
I found a great lack of support on the web, and alot of people with very very strong view points, that almost border on being abusive. I found i got so frustrated that i didnt even want to post on this topic any more, that i would come to my own conclusion. I really hate also that people "hijack" so called support threads! I had a discussion in the cs support with hoobly which was great, to me she had her views but put them across in a none threatening way, that we could actually discuss the issue. The thing alot of these vigialantes dont get is that when they come on ranting and raving i will not even listen or finish reading what they have to say.
It is wonderful that most women get to experience a fantastic, beautiful empowering birth, but for some of us its just not like that. I really dont want to hear from anyone who has had that kind of birth comment on my descion beacuse they have not experienced what you or i have! Be strong and know that you are doing what is best for you personally. And really the birth is only the beginning of something its not the be all and end all. I had a very traumatic experience and didnt get to hold or feed my son for a few days and we have a wonderful bond and i dont believe it would be any different if the birth was different.
Stay strong with your choice it is after all your choice It is those negative comments and the "you shouldves" that make us doubt ourselves. You have made an informed decision, good luck