But surely its not my fault? It just helps me deep down to know there is nothing else I could have done
IT IS DEFINATELY NOT YOUR FAULT.

But I don't really think it's anyone's fault. Some of it was circumstance. Some of it is hospital policy. And there's not a lot you could have done at that time.

It was the first time you were having a baby. You had no experience of what to do and Mason's early arrival wouldn't have helped the issue either.

There are a number of things that I have learnt from (1) my first birth and (2) suggestions that I have heard on BB.

For example - I had never thought to lower the screen... or ask for the baby to be bought into recovery or to try to breastfeed ASAP. But in 4 months - I'm going to ask for all of those things! And this time I WILL carry my birth plan with me everywhere (and not rely on DH) - so that he can cut the cord. I am having an elective c/s... and now I keep getting the feeling that baby #2 will want to come into the world sooner, and I end up having a VBAC.

It seems that Mason had a bit of a stressful entry into the world... and hopefully your #2 won't have to experience that. But at the end of the day you have a beautiful little boy. Look forward Danni... think about all the positive and wonderful things that have happened.

XOXO