I can understand your fear. I have always been stressed at the thought of having a cs for the thought that I'd need to have a general as the thought of a needle in my back freaks me out. Then I think how sad it would be for DH to miss out.

I don't know how much you live your DH. But maybe if to totally adore him still you could be brave just for him, for your love and for his love for this baby. sometimes it's easier to do it for someone else than be a sook for ourselves

Does that make sense??

I think you will do an amazing job and I can't wait to hear about your new baby