I think you need to put vag birth and surgical birth into perspective...
Fear of birth is totally normal... I was totally petrified and would cry at night constantly just thinking about the birth when I was pregnant with my first, c/s was not an option, was never even discussed! I was only 15 years old and by myself... I gave birth to a 4.2kg (9lb 2oz) baby naturally without drugs (I wanted them... lol) in only a few hrs. It is amazing what your body can do and even more amazing is the feeling you will have afterwards

I wish you all the best with your up coming birth no matter the choice you make, but just know that most women experience a lot of fear about birth and go onto have great birth experiences.

xx