Hun, my pyschologist says the first thing she recommends for PND is one day a week in childcare so mum can have a break. My ds starts next week, and tbh I wish I had enrolled him earlier. And you are doing it tougher than I am- I am have illusion of help in dh

Don't be too hard on yourself. I think a day off for mummy is very well deserved- enjoy every second of it