I actually remember, when I was twelve years old, I was sitting with my mother one day and I said "Mum, one day, I'm going to have a daughter... and her name is going to be Kathleen."

it was very sudden and out of the blue, and she questioned me about it, asking why I chose Kathleen... I didn't know why then and I don't know why now... All I know is, that every single day of my life that goes by, and I'm not holding my daughter named Kathleen because she doesn't exist, the more my heart breaks.

I'm actually scared too, because I've always had really a really weird menstrual cycle, and in a 7 year relationship which has endured a lot of unprotected sex, this was the first possible pregnancy I've ever had. I'm worried I might not even be able to have children at a later date in life.