Hun, from what you've posted you do worry me - it's not your desire for a child, or for a girl, but for your self esteem. You are probably aware that children follow the patterns their parents show them. If you believe you are unlovable, your daughter will grow up knowing she should accept second-best. Think first what you want for your daughter's future and work on that before you get to work on having a child.

And guys don't look at the young, thin ones - they look at the ones with the large chests. I've been rejected and passed over many times because of my figure, but hey, if men were all the same in what they liked then most of us would be without them!