Thanks MaryDean,
I feel a bit silly sending that post because of all the ladies here that have been waiting so long, but at the same time I still feel disappointed and don't really have anyone else to get support from. So I came here looking for it.
I have started writing my own personal diary, that gives my emotions as well as my charting. Its just something I am doing but not publishing to anyone. I guess typing it up kinda feels like I am talking to someone about it all and that makes me feel a bit better. I guess its nice to do, so that when it does happen I can have a record of the journey to look back on and maybe share with bubs when they have grown up.
I might also take your advice and go and get a massage on Thursday and get my hopes up about the next cycle.

thanks for you reply, I really appreciate it.