You so have the right to feel the way you do. I know I certainly feel like that and I have 3 gorgeous angels to hug and hold. Just because we have children it doesn't mean we feel less pain and/or anger when we lose one. Or less pain when AF turns up when we are so desparately trying to have another one. Someone said to me the other day when talking of my last loss (haven't seen the person for a very long time and they didn't know) that I had 3 lovelies and she was sure I was leaving it at that now! I didn't reply because I knew the words that would come out of my mouth would not have been good ones.

So you are not alone. Believe me, there are hundreds of us out here.
Big hug to you,
Debbie