Oh im so sorry to hear But please know that you dont need to get everything right for your baby to want to come, babies dont care if you dont feel like ur life is perfect, they can come at what you think is the worst timing but it all works out!

I had 2 miscarriages between my DD and being pregnant now and I truly believe it was because I was trying to force a pregnancy to happen, I had it in my head that I wanted another baby straight after my DD. In hindsight, if that wld have happened I wldnt have coped! The 3 year age gap between kids will be perfect for my family.

My m/cs made me have a few big realisations which I really needed, moreso my last one where my baby died at 10ish weeks. I was really trying to force the pregnancy to be successful, once it was all over I realised its something that cant he controlled and u really shldnt try and force something so natural! (This is for my situation only, ivf etc is a whole different story)

It really sounds like u have taken what you need to from this m/c your going through..which is good, and does help the healing process, but at the same time, having your baby that you have so many dreams for already, taken from you really really hurts as well and I am so sorry your going through it. xx
Take care of yourself and know that ur baby is there just waiting for the right moment to be part of ur lives. x