Oh I hear you! Honestly... the first couple of cycles of us TTC#2 was half-hearted to say the least.
I want to get #2 happening and out of the way but, at the same time, I didn't feel ready to go thru pregnancy (and no bourbon!! hahaha) and then the sleep deprivation of a newborn etc. etc.
I don't know what happened but this cycle I've really gotten into it... like something clicked and I decided I was ready?
I think perhaps I was a little afraid because we were moving and Neil had started a new job - too many "new" things happening. Now that we're here, it's not such a scary thought.