TMI post- brown spotting at time of af, is it just a weird af, or bfp?

[Jahzara]

xoxo

[Anila]

Im heart broken and in tears, its now starting to look like my normal pre af spotting, but why, why would it do that to me, why would it be brown for 4 days, why would it give me that glimmer of hope that just maybe just maybe this was finally going to be my month, hubby doesnt understand, he and he is right to be mad at me, i obsess to much, if i had held out we wouldnt have wasted money we didnt have on a hpt.
I hate my body so much, i dont know why it would do this to me.

[kawazuki]

oh hun im sorry

but keep your hopes up it will happen

[Stevie]

sweetheart,
he shouldnt be getting mad with you, and your a women under alot of pressure, of course yu obsess too much.. we all do.
You needed to do that HPT so that you didnt get your hopes up anymore over the next few days (im sorry of that came out wrong)
your time will come sweetheart, until then please stay strong.

[Elocin]

Thinking of you honey x

[onthefly]

Sorry mate.

[Anila]

Thanks guys
hubby is right (i know, cant believe i said that) i do obsess too much ova ttc, i need something to distact me majorly

Stevie-anne, u were right, least i know now, but geez the timing of the red spotting to show up straight after i poas, lol

still not enough for a pad, but i definatly think it is af on her way.

thanks guys for listening to yet another ttc post (winge) from me ur eva loyal anila

[Anila]

Af just showed herself in full, i cant believe what a rollercoaster ride she put me on this last few days, ill never trust her again