A VENT- BUT.....I'm getting Engaged!

[Junipear]

Oh boy,
Do you get the feeling you've done this before....I don't know but Im getting sick of trying and missing.

So maybe we got the timing better this month?
CD 1 about 8pm on the 7th April.- Does that count as day 1 or is it the 8th as CD1 the first full day of AF? DP calls it 'the reds' LOL
(I spose I have to find something to make me laugh right now )

So we DTD on Friday 19th and that morning was actually the day I saw that snotty plug come away, (Sorry TMI) followed by copious amounts of EWCM. I had a sore side on friday like when that side is growing the follicle, please please please spit the egg out tonight......calculations say ovulation either Mon, tues, or wed, which if that is the case there wont be any little boys left still alive by then surley, and we miss the target again.
Why doe TTC feel like such a big mathematical equation- CD1-5x 30day cycle + 14 - Leuteal phase 16 days =Frustration! Just do it all ready?????? Others get pregnant by accident I wish that would happen to me.
As you can probably tell im feeling pretty numb about the whole TTC thing today because Im nearly over it. This is probably the closest to ovulation that we have ever been able to DTD, (DP came in from the farm).
I guess Im just so used to AF turning up at the end of the 16 day L.Phase that Im just expecting it to happen again. I haven't even Ovulated this cycle yet, still waiting for that tell tale stab in the side.
When we DTD though we don't really make love with the specific intent to reproduce, because we don't get to see each other that often when he comes home we're just so happy to see each other.
This time was a little different it was specifically strategically placed but still in the heat of the moment so to speak as above.
I spose you might say not really trying but not really avoiding, but more when the oportunity presents itself. At least I know if I look back on all my posts I will see what days we DTD and know from them those definatly arnt the days to DTD, cos nothing will happen. LOL. Thats one way of looking at it.

Anyhow, I spose.

Negitive day today, I'm really angry with my own mother over her not wanting me to try and have a baby because she thinks because I have diabetes the baby will die and how will I afford a funeral after 25 weeks gestation. Mega ***** makes me so angry! Can't she be happy for me- oh I forgot- Shes 72 -shes allowed to treat people like **** because shes old! Well darling mother- you had my brother when you were 38 and you had Gestational diabetes 4 times!!! Truce............I need to crash the wave on the beach or I will just rant and rant...

BUT we are looking at the rings! I'm happy ;but mothers not! Shes never even met DP and she doesn't like him! Am I the only one with a mother like that?

But I think I need another thought? Has anyone ever got a BFP 4 days between DTT and Ov?

Cheers
June

[Catastrophic]

With my last pregnancy I didn't DTD anywhere around where my ovulation day was and fell pregnant... Don't give up hope xox those swimmers have a way.

And can I just say holy moly at your mother!!!! I have no words :-/

[Junipear]

Im almost convinced my mother is mentally ill......only like since the day I was born LOL....I hope my irritability today means Im about to Ovulate though? Could be a good sign. LOL

[black_rose]

Hug my mum was /is very similar to yours. How can she not like your dp if she hasn't met him? How exciting to be ring shopping!

[Artechim]

My DD1 was conceived about 4-5 days before ovulation. I thought I had missed the boat that month but here she is.

Sucks about your mum. Let it roll off you, she is a negative nancy and if it wasn't that it would be something else. Some people are just like that. xx

[Junipear]

Ok so I don't know if I have ovulated this week? But I still feel really wet, like I feel yukky and I just want to shower and clean up.
I havn't gone dry yet like I would if I did ovulate, and I've been thinking quite often "What the heck is going on down there?"
I even put a pad on last night just too feel dry for a little while.

So today it is weird- its like egg white, but its not quite egg white, and it doesn't stretch, well it kinda does but bounces back to a glob and its milky colour.

Either I have a bad case of Vaginosis after we DTD last week or I still have,'t Ovulated and its trying again due to failure to launch? I have had EWCM since last Saturday 20th
and Im begging to feel dry...
Just for a giggle- I made my friend laugh when I told her I didn't like having sex right at the end of my period-like the very minute you finish and hes been asking "Are you finished yet?". When she asked why, she nearly killed herself laughing when I said "Cos I've just had stuff coming out of me for 4 days, I want a break in the weather!". It must have been they way I said it cos we both just laughed and laughed.
Oh boy.....but Im beginning to wonder if I am going to get a 7 day cannesten treatment every time we DTD. I have actually been google searching the phenomonon.
If I have got a dose, I'd better get it in the next 2 weeks before AF shows up- presuming that we missed the boat again and AF will turn up as scheduled.

But my Blood sugar levels have been fantasic this week, makes me wonder if you have conceived if your blood sugar levels lower because your body is busy doing something else?
Anyhow, I guess I will let you all know what happens ....but at this stage of planning I'm stocking up for AF. LOL

Cheers
June

[Junipear]

Hi Everyone

A fter really bad the last few days I knew A.F was on her way. But I kind of knew earlier before the 2WW started we missed again.

See I now my CM so well that I didn't even have to even hope that I was pregnant. About 4 days after suspected ovulation I saw the tell tale mucus. I was a little confused by the creamy CM but it was a different ovulating mucus to what I normally see. But apparently its still very fertile.
So, I just happened to look down during a visit to the lav, and I was upset with what I saw. "Oh great I said 'Period Pus'!" Sorry to be so graphic but you know that stuff that looks like snot! YEEEUP! I call it P.P because it maeans A.F will turn up in 2 weeks!

And yes- she turned up last night. You can't imagine how angry I felt, so devistaed at the same time even though I was expecting her! I just stared at the paper so fuel with hate!
I never thought I was feel such resentment growing for what my body does- or lack there of what I want it to do! ( A BFP!)

But anyhow, I had a week from hell I was a sick as a dog! I went up to the hospital after days of cramps, vomiting, and sheer agony.
I was greated by a charming Triage nurse who asked me was there any stinging or burning when I pee, No I said who then flatly stated "You probably have thrush!" Man was I furious! How dare she try and diagnose me, how dare she insult my body!
I polightly told her "Umm, I would like to see a Dr please" But I felt like saying "Thank you for the diagnosis DR!" Unfortunat;ly thre is a poster on the wall that says abuse will not be tollerated and you will not be seen rar rar rar.....

After sitting there for 5 hours I saw a Dr and Im telling him the story....

"Last week my DP said he went to the Drs because he had a sore penis and he thought Id given him something?
I have been doubled over with cramps laying in bed trying to go to sleep, vomiting, sweats,...and my Vagina feel like its on fire!
I've either got thrush, an upper UTI or both..."

"Oh dear, we better see whats goin g on!" so in goes the speculum.
"Well, you have no sign of Genital Warts, but your Cervix is very inflamed!...there is a discharge so we will send a swab away, but there is always the possibility of a Clamydial or Ghonorreah infection!"
grandually went to...............Has that bastard been r***ting around behind my back!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then I was almost in tears. HOW HOW HOW!
'I will be back in a few minutes with an nice HUGE injection for your butt'......he said he would give me antibiotics to cover all bases, he was treating me for an STD even if I didn't have one.
So I sweated in uncertaintly until the results were sent to my GP and I could find out a week later what the swab incubated.
I phone the surgery on Monday...Nothing!
I was pretty sure it was an Upper UTI. Ive had one before, there is no pain or burning when i pee, just a burning whole abdo cavity and its contents and vertical pain up the stomach muscles and absolute agony when I walk.
I felt crippled, and mammed.......and then I felt like a total jerk for ever thinking my DP would ever cheat on me.

So it was a week from hell, and not that Im back to CD1, I finally feel human again, and I can go and pick up my brain from where I last parked it before the PMS hit!

Back to the drawing board!...cough cough- or is it back to the Bedroom? (Sorry couldn't help it!)

Cheers
June

[Danielle_NZ]

Are you trying for a girl? is that why you DTD days before ovulation?

[Danielle_NZ]

What do you mean about the 7 day cannesten treatment??? interested to know more

Ok so I don't know if I have ovulated this week? But I still feel really wet, like I feel yukky and I just want to shower and clean up.
I havn't gone dry yet like I would if I did ovulate, and I've been thinking quite often "What the heck is going on down there?"
I even put a pad on last night just too feel dry for a little while.

So today it is weird- its like egg white, but its not quite egg white, and it doesn't stretch, well it kinda does but bounces back to a glob and its milky colour.

Either I have a bad case of Vaginosis after we DTD last week or I still have,'t Ovulated and its trying again due to failure to launch? I have had EWCM since last Saturday 20th
and Im begging to feel dry...
Just for a giggle- I made my friend laugh when I told her I didn't like having sex right at the end of my period-like the very minute you finish and hes been asking "Are you finished yet?". When she asked why, she nearly killed herself laughing when I said "Cos I've just had stuff coming out of me for 4 days, I want a break in the weather!". It must have been they way I said it cos we both just laughed and laughed.
Oh boy.....but Im beginning to wonder if I am going to get a 7 day cannesten treatment every time we DTD. I have actually been google searching the phenomonon.
If I have got a dose, I'd better get it in the next 2 weeks before AF shows up- presuming that we missed the boat again and AF will turn up as scheduled.

But my Blood sugar levels have been fantasic this week, makes me wonder if you have conceived if your blood sugar levels lower because your body is busy doing something else?
Anyhow, I guess I will let you all know what happens ....but at this stage of planning I'm stocking up for AF. LOL

Cheers
June

[Danielle_NZ]

Lol oh okay I thought there was some kind of "getting pregnant with a girl" trick about it lol opps my bad.

[FancyPants]

Others get pregnant by accident I wish that would happen to me.

This is probably the closest to ovulation that we have ever been able to DTD.

Only because they happened to have sex at the right time and the swimmer swam up the right tube. Also stress can delay ovulation and even one day delay, if your timing sex around ovulation, could lead to a negative test. Please don't feel defeated. If you're not having sex at the right time you can't expect to get pregnant. While you're doing it as close as you can, you shouldn't get so upset about it if you're not having sex at the right times when it's not something you have much control over and you understand the timing may not be ideal and sex so early before ovulation will mean the sperm are gone before the egg releases. I'm not trying to be mean or hurtful, just observation from what you said.