Hi Everyone

A fter really bad the last few days I knew A.F was on her way. But I kind of knew earlier before the 2WW started we missed again.

See I now my CM so well that I didn't even have to even hope that I was pregnant. About 4 days after suspected ovulation I saw the tell tale mucus. I was a little confused by the creamy CM but it was a different ovulating mucus to what I normally see. But apparently its still very fertile.
So, I just happened to look down during a visit to the lav, and I was upset with what I saw. "Oh great I said 'Period Pus'!" Sorry to be so graphic but you know that stuff that looks like snot! YEEEUP! I call it P.P because it maeans A.F will turn up in 2 weeks!

And yes- she turned up last night. You can't imagine how angry I felt, so devistaed at the same time even though I was expecting her! I just stared at the paper so fuel with hate!
I never thought I was feel such resentment growing for what my body does- or lack there of what I want it to do! ( A BFP!)

But anyhow, I had a week from hell I was a sick as a dog! I went up to the hospital after days of cramps, vomiting, and sheer agony.
I was greated by a charming Triage nurse who asked me was there any stinging or burning when I pee, No I said who then flatly stated "You probably have thrush!" Man was I furious! How dare she try and diagnose me, how dare she insult my body!
I polightly told her "Umm, I would like to see a Dr please" But I felt like saying "Thank you for the diagnosis DR!" Unfortunat;ly thre is a poster on the wall that says abuse will not be tollerated and you will not be seen rar rar rar.....

After sitting there for 5 hours I saw a Dr and Im telling him the story....

"Last week my DP said he went to the Drs because he had a sore penis and he thought Id given him something?
I have been doubled over with cramps laying in bed trying to go to sleep, vomiting, sweats,...and my Vagina feel like its on fire!
I've either got thrush, an upper UTI or both..."

"Oh dear, we better see whats goin g on!" so in goes the speculum.
"Well, you have no sign of Genital Warts, but your Cervix is very inflamed!...there is a discharge so we will send a swab away, but there is always the possibility of a Clamydial or Ghonorreah infection!"
grandually went to...............Has that bastard been r***ting around behind my back!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then I was almost in tears. HOW HOW HOW!
'I will be back in a few minutes with an nice HUGE injection for your butt'......he said he would give me antibiotics to cover all bases, he was treating me for an STD even if I didn't have one.
So I sweated in uncertaintly until the results were sent to my GP and I could find out a week later what the swab incubated.
I phone the surgery on Monday...Nothing!
I was pretty sure it was an Upper UTI. Ive had one before, there is no pain or burning when i pee, just a burning whole abdo cavity and its contents and vertical pain up the stomach muscles and absolute agony when I walk.
I felt crippled, and mammed.......and then I felt like a total jerk for ever thinking my DP would ever cheat on me.

So it was a week from hell, and not that Im back to CD1, I finally feel human again, and I can go and pick up my brain from where I last parked it before the PMS hit!

Back to the drawing board!...cough cough- or is it back to the Bedroom? (Sorry couldn't help it!)

Cheers
June