You are certainly not a stupid little girl, you sound very intelligent... and 17 is not that little
I certainly know the feeling of hating your age, so understand that. And also so glad I was able to see past it too.

Yes, they were rhetorical questions, but as I am a nosy cow, always nice to have the answers too! lol

Sounds to me like you have a great idea of what you want, and where you want to be, and it made me smile thinking of you sitting at your drafting table, with a kids playing in the background.
But I think you know that won't happen the way you can see it in your head if you were to have kids now. Won't stop you wanting them though.
So perhaps finding a good time to sit down with Rex and actually make some plans. Nothing set in stone, but have a really good honest talk about his travel, for example, your study, and starting your lives together on an even footing. HAve a chat about your desire for children sooner than later, and how you want to raise them and give him the chance to see if you are on the same page. Remember as condescending as it sounds, you and he are both still very young, and you will be amazed how quickly you will change, grow and be prepared that you may grow apart too. I hope you don't.

But get out there and experience the world, find out what life has on offer, and know that you are working towards your goal - which sounds like it is to be a working mum of gorgeous children and a happy husband. And oh yes, another cliche, are you ready? It won't happen overnight, but it will happen Just don't try and put the cart before the horse. Sweet dreams xo