Amy- send me some of your motivation... Phew it was 42 degrees in penrith today and although the news said it was 38 here my thermometer said it was 40 here... There was no way i was taking the kids out in that... if DP was home i probably would have gone this evening without them would have been a perfect day to sweat it out...

Scone- i wasnt jugeing this girl... well i just hoped that we could be honest and maybe ... you know help each other but i cant stand when people are fake and dishonest . I think you should be proud to have started and putting in the effort... the way i see it is ANY loss is better then a gain...

i have decided that i'm focusing on me and me only... Its nice to have motivation but (and i hope i dont offend anyone) but i dont pay attention to what others have lost... it only depresses me... I know i havent been putting in 100 % my excuse is i'm sick but you know what... There is always an excuse with me... Its hot, its cold, i dont have time, etc etc... well i need to focus and make time... no one else will loose the weight for me... if others are ahead or behind its all ok cos we all know what we have and havent done and were accountable for ourselves...

I have made a promise to NEVER again weight as much as i did in the begining of this challange... Not even close to it... it may take me weeks, months or hey even the year (or 2) to get to my ultimate goal but i really want to get there and thats my focus... I will use everyone as motivation but i'm not pushing myself to do it faster then everyone else... just going at my own pace and hey it took a while to get to here so it'll take time going back... I was telling my DP its like a reverse pregnancy for me... HAHA i need to loose 30-40 kgs... i gained 27 with my DS and lost 10 after then gained 22 with DD... i would love to say that i could loose a kilo a week and in 40 weeks be fat free but it doesnt work that way...

keep up the good work ladies