LOL, sorry about the drop out, my puter just had a small heart attack....and it was witching hour and DH came home, so dinner, baths and bed for the kidlets. Ahhh, glad it is all over for now.

As I was saying I do have goals written out and rewrds and stuff, trying to motivate myself, but I jsut can't seem to muster the motivation. I think I will just have to persevere and keep trying until it becomes habbit. I really am so uncomfy with myself.