3LM you do not suck, you can relent and give yourself a break hun because as I posted earlier, we all have so much more going on that the pressure we place on ourselves is huge at times hun. I bet you will find even if you do 'give up" that yo will still try to get some exercise in, you will try to have a healthy dinner at times, you will make choices for healthy snacks - maybe not every day at every meal but just replacing 1 or 2 is making a different health wise and modelling to your kids. I have been cracking away at this last 5 kgs for months and months and months and although I am not tracking now and just generally trying to make some good decisions - give the kids good food, and show them that exercise is a part of every day, that is enough for me right now even if I am not budging the last 5 kgs.

I failed miserably at no sugar not sure who I was kidding but I lasted 3 days before I was feeling SO dizzy and sick and just horrible, and unfortunately for me, dizzy = anxiety so of course that amped up while I was feeling like that - then I decided, why on earth am I doing this? Yes I truly feel that sugar is terrible for us but I actually don't have HUGE amounts of it either but if I feel like a little glass of fruit juice with lunch I am going to have it occasionally.

Anyway off my soapbox now and just wanted to give you a huge hug hun because i can feel your disappointment and how upset you are through the screen xoxoxoxo