Hi,

I am 55kgs, 154cm a size 8-10 and its the heaviest ive ever been, i have put on about 3kgs and kept it on in the last 12mths. Before that i have always been a constant weight around 50-52kg's. Anyhow, my sister who has 3 kids and is bigger than me (always has been even b4 kids) always makes comments to mum like 'she looks like she has put on more weight', 'her face is fatter today', her pants are looking too tight or that top/pants she wore made her look heavier.!!! OMG I never look at her and think she is big or puffy etc, i just dont think to critisize ever!! I dont understand it.

The thing that hurts is that she sees a friend of mine same height as me and same thing they have put a few kilos on, but apparently 'they still look good'. Seriously this is what makes girls get eating disorders, i sometimes want to go to this extreme so i dont hear the horrible comments.

I joined a gym recently and when i saw the trainer the first thing she said was 'so you are not here for weight loss, just fitness?' She didnt even ask me just assumed. So from that comment i can assume that i dont actually look as big as my sister makes out? My partner always tell me not to listen to her and that she is most probably jealous. But i cant understand that either.

I have an aunty that does the same thing. I avoid seeing her for that very reason but with my sister its different. I couldn't not see her.

And now when im just about to embark on ivf to get pregnant i am all down and paranoid about how im going to then cope with my sister and the comments once i start to gain weight (if i do get pregnant).

Im terrified of gaining weight now. And my self esteem is so lo..