thanks guys !

MR -thanks for saying i have a nice face , i honestly thought/think its the worst part of me , ovbiously i have big issues about it .

I think my body issues stem from when an ex i had in high school ( actually my ist reall boyf , the one who took my virginity ) told me , Id be the perfect girlfriend if i was a lot thinner and had more "common knowlegde " about things .. :0 (i was a sz 12 in high school , normal size)

so basically to him i was fat and dumb ... .. he broke my heart and i hear his comments in my head all the time ..