Kate,

I've been there too (numerous times, too many to count) and even when I have seen photos of me looking huge & disgusting, I would feel a bit guilty and think about doing something about it but then not bother and eat some more (I am a comfort eater) It has only been just prior to Xmas that I have changed my mind set. One thing is that you need to view is that it is not a diet, it is a lifestyle change. Like Shanti has said, you can do it - you've done it before! Shanti is right too - she is eating well, not diet food but food to fuel our bodies to get through the day - to look after ourselves, our children and it just happens that it will make you lose weight. I occassionally have the odd day of eating 'junk' food but the next day I get back into eating well and exercising. You'd be surprised at how many calories can be in even what you might think is ok/good food but also amazed at how much 'good' food you can fill up on and have minimal calories. An online tool I use is Calorie King (google it) which has a food diary & counts calories for you.

I wish you all the best with whatever you decide to do.